Everything is Conspiring on Your Behalf – Everything

Everything in my life is conspiring to teach me to savor & serve. I wonder if that is true for you, too?

From the messages on the Yogi tea tags to every book I pick up to the interviews I did yesterday for Teach Now with Michael Jones, Brian Andreas and Lee-Ann Regan.

It feels like a hundred thousand angels, Devas and lovers of wholeness are surrounding me and cheering me on. I keep seeing myself running the last steps of a ultra-marathon while the crowd urges me forward.

But my crowd isn’t yelling at me – it’s more a feeling of intense loving attention, absolute acceptance that is, frankly, a bit overwhelming – but as I write this, I see it is overwhelming only because I keep resisting it.

All the Devas and angels and messages keep saying to us:

* Stop fighting.

*Relax. Relax some more.

* Follow the thread of what is here (this came up in both interviews with Michael and Brian yesterday, so wildly obvious, wish you could have seen my face, jaw hitting the desk).

* It could not be simpler: it’s the direct apprehension of reality. There is nothing to do but taste the tea, feel the keyboard under your finger, sweat your prayers, serve the way that is here to serve now.

* Forget abstractions. Truth is here now. What it tells you is about now – not one minute from now, not five years from now. Don’t concretize it into a plan. Don’t drag it into the abstract future.

* It’s your lived embodied experience that matters. The call to stillness is the call to be in that experience.

All of this makes such deep sense to me and yet, this week, I resisted the hell out of it.

I did not meditate after going to a meditation intensive all weekend. I have not done my own yoga practice. I have spent hours in front of my computer, more than needed for the launch of Teach Now.

I am not apologizing for doing this. My mind would like me to be all worm-like about my choices or not share this with you or put a bow on it and turn this week’s arid resistance into a tidy lesson. That is resistance continuing! Ha! Got you, tricky mind o’ mine.

If I try to make a plan about stopping resistance, that is resistance, too.

Here is what else I see as I write this: savoring and serving continue even when we resist! Only we don’t get to enjoy the fruits. We aren’t there for the party.

I long to be there for this party and to be there with you.

Hiro told me this week that “changing the world through Savor and Serve will begin with transforming your own heart and mind, even as you help those in your immediate ecology transform theirs.”  Yes, I see that.

Everything is conspiring to gently unravel me into the now. There is only my belly to the now, nothing else to do.

Join me there.

You know the way. I know you do.

Look for the threads – even just the invitations from today. Give way to them. Let them support you like a magic carpet.

Everything is conspiring for you.

If you wish, tell me what your Devas and angels are saying. I am honored to hear.

P.S. I have been so lucky to be interviewed about Teach Now and S&S this week:

A convo with Lateral Action ‘s uber smart Mark McGuiness about “You’ve never really understood something until you’ve explained it to somebody else.”

Susannah’s astonishing juicy questions – read who I would have dinner with (starts with Jesus and ends with Cleopatra)

Hysterical video conversation with the astonishingly wise Susan Piver about writing, making a living, hair-dos and meditation

Playing on our edge interview with bright star Elese Coit

And a lovely talk about teaching with Nicole at Whole Self – her questions are wonderful (people are so smart and kind, wow!)

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Deb - March 18, 2011

Thanks for this. 🙂

I always loved the saying from the Talmud: “Every blade of grass has its angel that bends over it and whispers: Grow, grow.”

Sometimes I hear them whispering it to me too. (love it when that happens.) (sometimes i forget to listen …)

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    I love it when we remember to listen!

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Sarah Flick - March 18, 2011

mine (angels and Devas) are saying “let go let go let go yes yes yes just be just be just be let go let go let go”… breathing into this 🙂

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    are you listening friend?

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Kate - March 18, 2011

Mine are saying much the same as yours! ‘Be here. Do what’s here. Let us take care of the rest.’

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    yes Kate, such good advice and so good to hear your voice here!

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Paula - March 18, 2011

Found my angel in the dressing room at the gynecologist today. Can’t run away from fear. Got to breathe into it and wait to see what happens. It’s never as bad as you think it’s going to be. Anticipating, projecting, worrying are ALMOST ALWAYS worse that what really comes, and what’s more, you wasted the present thinking about the future. So don’t resist fear, own it and move into it and through it. Wow. Got lots from listening to that angel.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    yes Paula yes!

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Anonymous - March 18, 2011

Found myself watching your wonderful conversation with Susan Piver yesterday (discovered it while at her site).
Immediately after, I read something in MoonCircles from a new commentator –

“The greatest gift we can give a world so desperate for healing is our own wholeness; only then are we truly able to be of service.” (This is from Bekah Finch, at http://www.SacredWayYoga.com.)

I felt these words speak to me strongly, and also felt the desire to share them with you, in light of that conversation with Susan. I think that sometimes our actions are not needed anywhere but within us. As we take care of ourselves, we set in motion an energy – an energy of healing. This is what heals the world. For every action, we’ve been told, there is an equal reaction. Well, if we all heal ourselves, then imagine how much more healed is the world!

I so appreciate your sharing your “journey” (couldn’t grasp a better word for it at this moment – though the term is becoming rather hackneyed). It is comforting to know that those people we view as successful and having it all together have the familiar feeling of clay feet that those of us still struggling to make it to your vantage point have.

Thank you and Susan for such a marvelous opportunity to see brilliance evolve and radiate!

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    oh Kat, I agree with what Susan said and I am also clear that it would be easy for me to hide in only doing inner work and not doing any thing direct. Does that make sense?

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Rhiannon Laurie - March 18, 2011

Things can exist in flow. There don’t need to be any rigid boundaries at the moment. Just go with it.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    sweet!

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the whole self - March 19, 2011

I feel this energy very much at the moment. How things come together with ease almost without my intervention. I just have to show up and do the work. This morning I received an email that linked me to a website which completed an idea that I’d been trying to formulate. These last few weeks have been incredibly magical. Over and over again.

Part of that magic was talking to you! Thank you for the lovely mention.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    hope that magic is continuing! see you in Teach Now!

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Jalene Case - March 19, 2011

I feel like I’m going through this birthing process with you. I’m letting go (with more than necessary struggle at times) the vision for my future that I thought I wanted and letting in the passion and the connection to the future I truly want. As I learn to sing a new song, my authentic voice is like the lead singer and my enthusiasm & knowledge are the back-up singers! Rock on!

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    expand into connection!

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Tracie - March 19, 2011

This hit me to the core as the voices in my head have been screaming “can’t”.
You can’t accomplish, you can’t leap, you can’t …….
Then I read this part of your post, “Forget abstractions. Truth is here now. What it tells you is about now – not one minute from now, not five years from now. Don’t concretize it into a plan. Don’t drag it into the abstract future.”
Wow you mean I CAN leap without having that 5 year plan. I think I will be mulling this over, tasting it and bathing in the possibility today. Thank you!

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    hope the mulling has continued to show you this truth – be sure and remind me when I forget, okay?

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Cara Brown - March 20, 2011

I’m listening to your conversation with Elese Coit. What a powerful discussion!
I’m new to you and seem to be about your age. Once I get beyond the voice that tells me I’m somehow behind schedule, I want to jump in and join in with all of this. It resonates with me down into my bones.

What I want from you as a leader and as someone who has so much experience as a deep, perceptive listener, is to keep listening and keep sharing your own process as this unfolds for you. It is so powerful to hear your breathtaking transparancy as you talk about how it is for you and that is such leadership! You speak for so, so many of us.

I was raised with 3 brothers and a very masculine mom and being “productive” was the only way to be valued. As I come into mid-life, I’m finding I can’t do this anymore. There is a huge protest going on inside me. And I have the sense that it’s also that way for other people (not just women) and maybe for the planet. As I hear you talk about savoring and serving it seems like another way of describing masculine and feminine ways of being. I’m learning how to have my masculine serve my feminine instead of the other way around.

Several years ago, I heard a talk by Rachel Naomi Remen. Someone in the audience asked her how people in care-giving professions keep from burning out. She said what we do is to fill ourselves up so much that we spill over on to those we care for. I loved the way that sounded and yet had no idea what that meant on a daily basis. I think that sometimes God speaks through other people like lightning bolts. That was one of those for me. I keep asking myself what it means for me.

The challenge for me is to figure out how to make savoring a priority. I could write the most detailed, wise, loving self-care manual (maybe I ought to as a start!) but If I had one, I bet I wouldn’t follow it! I get caught up in busy-ness and doing instead, so then I compensate by eating too much, to0 fast, don’t get enough sleep, etc. I think for me it has to do with never having been given a paradigm where being in feminine energy – savoring – was valued. I wonder if each of us making this paradigm shift will be what it takes. When I really do savor and live here in this moment, then I can source all the energy, inspiration and inclination needed to naturally serve the world. Maybe?

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    Cara, i have been thinking and thinking of your comment – it feels like it encapsulates everything I want to explore and find and name here – and live. I only hope I can. Thank you for your wisdom. Thank you.

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Kristin Noelle - March 20, 2011

This whole thing made me think of David Whyte’s “Everything is waiting for you” (http://www.panhala.net/Archive/Everything_is_Waiting.html). YES. And conspiring, too.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    yes! perfect!

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Rae Payne - March 21, 2011

Jennifer, I used to hang out on your forum in the early to mid 90’s (sorry, don’t remember the exact years). At the time, I was learning to make meaning out of my life. Learning to draw and learning to dream. I would draw pictures of Devas after they would show up in meditations. A few nights ago, my husband found a pile of old drawing journals. We sat together and excavated the memories from under the piles of dust they hid beneath. Low and behold, tucked inside the pages were my Devas. Then, tonight, in the quiet of my usually busy house, I checking in with you…after over a decade. And what do you request? “Tell me what your Devas and angels are saying.” For now they say Hello, dear one! And invite me to keep showing up. I am joyously making NEW meaning out of my life. I suppose they are reminding me of the utter beauty I found the first time I intentionally did that. Thank you for the being part of my synchronicity. It is good to be in your world once again.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    wow!! what a fantastic story – oh how lovely to be part of this with you in a small glorious way

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Christa - March 22, 2011

Yes. Thin.gs are much the same here.

Resist, relax, wind up, resist, relax. Repeated over and over.

There is so much going on, it’s hard to keep up!

And there is so much good… you are a huge part of that.

Thank you.

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    Anonymous - March 26, 2011

    what a great phrase resist relax wind up – perfect!!!

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Anonymous - March 26, 2011

thank you and yes I hear that argument sometimes too…

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